啦啦啦~啦啦啦~~~

草堂茗香要关了，心情沉痛
愤怒不起来，只有无奈
想到[放眼看世界]从那个时候的冷清到现在的红火
中间有很多人的努力，包括我这个小小的水友，虽然大家都是抱着娱乐的心态
对草堂的感情，
ll说，就象自己生的孩子一样，ll是一个很称职的斑竹，一个很鬼马的斑竹
那草堂对我，就象家一样，是一个温暖温馨的所在
在那里认识了很多有趣的朋友，
很长一段时间，坐在电脑前如果不去放眼看看，我都无事可做
现在BBS说关就关了，什么都没留下
无语了。。。。
“胳膊拧不过大腿”
只是想知道事情的原因~~~
应该给大家一个说法的

现在看着幻想现在“朴素”的首页，心里空空的
图片文字都可以备份
但是那个时候的心情没办法备份
现在只能看帖不能回帖的草堂
就象橱窗里的文物一样
只能看着那些文字图片，回想昨天的热闹和喧嚣
而且明天过后，连这些只能看不能碰的图文都没有了
悲凉~~~~~~

想起来那个时候[永痕文学社]刚刚开版的时候
自己还写了一篇象诗一样的东西，当时是凑热闹去的
我号称是一个没文化的人，读书少，能写成这个样子已经算是难得了
于是跑去把文章挖了出来

文章主题： 社长太深沉了，要不得，我来一个小学生状物的作文！    
 
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发信人: illusion (me and my shadow), 信区: Yonghen
标  题: 社长太深沉了，要不得，我来一个小学生状物的作文！
发信站: BBS 草堂茗香站 (Thu Nov 18 18:10:04 2004), 站内
 
那天，高大的梧桐树投下浓郁的阴影
有车像游鱼般由树干间平缓滑行而过
优雅而高贵
像一格一格漫不经心述说着的故事。
 
我指给朋友看这条最喜爱的路
朋友说，
在北碚的街上，到处都是这样的法国梧桐。
突然想去北碚，看我的树
那里一定有厚重的绿色阴影和斑驳灿烂的阳光
即使它们不是稀有珍贵
即使它们泛滥在北碚的街道两旁
我仍然固执任性的坚持这样的喜欢和钟爱
 
这些梧桐，像一群急着长大的小孩子
骨骼噼啪清脆的响着，快速向天空伸展
却因为少了时间的打磨而木质粗糙
沦为护路人
 
这样命定的结局
该让他们偷笑吧？
轻易逃开了切割打磨的血肉分离
终日自在沐浴日光风尘，粗心大意的生长
看脚下，一切的，声色犬马。。。。。
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第1楼 *************  illusion   **********************************       
 
Thu Nov 18 18:11:45 2004
 
 
没有社长那么惨痛的感情经历
深沉不起来哈
只能描写一下我们学校的梧桐树了
 

第2楼 *************  maygrass   **********************************       

Thu Nov 18 19:05:32 2004
 
我们学校的梧桐树
树干比我大腿还要粗
密密的绿叶
阳光透不出
站在下面不舒服
oh 
it's not true
there's no sunshine in Chengdu
 

 
第3楼 *************  illusion   **********************************       
 
Thu Nov 18 19:27:37 2004
 
 
今天下午还有好好的太阳
还有，虚构一下，增加点气氛，你就不要揭穿我了塞
 
【 在 maygrass 的大作中提到: 】
--

这个mm写的比我好～～～＾o＾

第10楼 *************   winback7yue  *********************************       

Tue Nov 23 17:37:22 2004
 
 

　　那天，高大的梧桐投下深郁的阴影
　　透过模糊的窗子
　　那茫茫的稻穗（这一句从文山那里借来的）在树干间一格一格闪过
　　就像那些恍惚迷离的片片年岁
 
　　很久没在那片树荫下走过
　　记忆没有温习，在那个冬季
　　一个人走路
　　叶子脆弱的擦过
　　
　　轻声的唱着歌，虚弱的声音
   　混在叶子里飘摇着坠落
　　喀嚓一脚走过
　　竟也就此萧然无息
 
　　高高的梧桐树下长长的路
　　我一个人走
　　那纷纷的枯叶飘过了整个冬季
 
　　那时竟想
　　有一天生命中失去了
　　某某某
　　记得在冬季来梧桐树下
　　走上一遍又一遍
　　把所有不好寄托在叶里
　　丢给风去处理
 
　　又是一个冬季
　　那些梧桐在那里
　　
　　

第13楼 *************  mayable   **********************************       
    
Mon Apr 11 09:22:47 2005
 
 
【 在 wolf1985 的大作中提到: 】
: 社长，就写我们柳林那些拄着拐杖的树吧......
 
 
柳林除了有拄着拐杖的树还有没有叶子的树，还有只有杆子的树，
想起小学放学路上，夏天，下午四点，太阳，依然炽热，那段种满梧桐的路，遮住了阳光，
很是惬意，走在下面，很幸福的感觉，后来城建的时候，那些树不知道都去了哪里了，
小学毕业，就真的再也没走过那条小路了
怀念

我要一直的等，等到喜欢的那个他
做他的天使，给他幸福，和温暖拥抱。。。 

但是他迟迟不肯来。。。。 

还好有朋友，孤独的人才不孤单
友情细水长流，默默给人淡淡的慰藉~~~~

Old And Wise/The Alan Parsons Project

As far as my eyes can see
There are shadows approaching me
And to those i left behind
I wanted you to know
You've always shared my deepest thoughts
You follow where i go

And oh when i'm old and wise
Bitter words mean little to me
Autumn winds will blow right through me
And someday in the mist of time
When they asked me if i knew you
I'd smile and say you were a friend of mine
And the sadness would be lifted from my eyes
Oh when i'm old and wise

As far as my eyes can see
There are shadows surrounding me
And to those i leave behind
I want you all to know
You've always shared my darkest hours
I'll miss you when i go

And oh, when i'm old and wise
Heavy words that tossed and blew me
Like autumn winds that will blow right through me
And someday in the mist of time
When they ask you if you knew me
Remember that you were a frined of mine
As the final curtain falls before my eyes
Oh when i'm old and wise

As far as my eyes can see

很多天没写日志了，觉得还是应该来更新一下下
照例是一贯的废话~~

昨天背着书去自习教室
拿着诺亚舟打了n遍俄罗斯、逻辑猜数、24点
坐了一个小时，看不下书，记不了单词
一怒之下收拾家当打道回府
坐在寝室也不知道做什么好，只好上床睡觉
从下午5点多一直睡到今天早上7点多
好象还从来没有睡过这么长时间
昨天是空白的一天
希望今天状态好点~~~

前天把QQ签名改了
写上：
决定要做的事情，需要我放弃90%的乐趣
某天，如果你们看到一个似曾相识的可怜的苦闷的呆子
请不要为她感到惋惜，谢谢~~

决定做个书呆子，天天看书，做题
眼睛里全是单词，公式，符号。。。。。
达到那种“理想状态”，嘎嘎~~~好喜剧
其实我做不到，自制能力太差了，悲哀~~~

决定考研，但是对于考什么专业，一直没下定决心
财大并没有我真正喜欢的专业（我的水平，考财大比较保险）
都不想考了，先工作看看 找到自己的方向，再考也可以的
但是家里的希望很高，说，你还是先考研吧
一直他们都让我相信，他们对我的决定很放心，我可以自己做主
现在才发现，他们放心，只是因为他们认为我会选择他们认为对的选择
其实也没有什么怨言，他们都是最爱我的人
我也不知道什么是对的什么是错的，对未来也没有什么把握，迷茫
选择没有对错可言
认真走下去就是对的吧，不管你在哪个方向
态度决定一切~~~
是这样吗？我不敢确定~~~
可能我到死都看不清这一切吧
在大事情上，我是一个迷糊的人，一个患得患失的人
我的迷茫，是不是因为我没有信仰？
（从“微观”上来说，我还是很超脱的，当然仅限于某些小事）

今天来点　a little bit　爆炸的音乐吧

迷航记 　　      黄立行

漂流好久错过很多  遗忘了朝向哪个星座
曾经有人为我掌舵  不知名的水手

身边的人们来去都匆匆  带著阶段性笑容
要面对多少虚伪的小丑  才停止堕落

找不到熟悉的天空  迷航记的水手
谁来为我点一根火柴  证明我的存在

莫名崇拜一个未来  寻找不存在的港口
或许只想跟著谁走  过简单的生活~

七天大假，今天是第五日了
没出去逛街，没出去游玩，就留守在学校里面了
闲散散，懒洋洋

——*第一天*——

上午学院拔河比赛。
我们队no 1，每人有一根巧克力雪糕，是奖品，哈哈
不过参加拔河的每支队都有雪糕
no 2 还是和路雪，比我们的雪糕好，为什么 T_T
作为冠军队伍的决定性力量，我拔了五场，肌肉酸痛了四天
我太投入了~~

下午接同学的同学
一美女~~呵呵，初次见面，还送我一个苹果绿的杂物筐。高兴~~

--*第二天*--

去妈妈单位的办事处玩，吃吃喝喝又睡睡，两天
跟妈妈聊了些小秘密，我大了，不再是小女孩了。

认识了一个读大一的妹妹和一个读大一的弟弟，
聊的还不错
妹妹笑起来好可爱，牙齿乱乱的，很俏皮

--*第四天*--

学校，旧馆，看书。有小古陪，偶是幸福的~~
小古在那里睡了好多觉，跟我差不多，
小古还没有在自习教室睡觉的经验，看的出来她睡得辛苦啊
小古，操练多了就可以睡的很舒服了，像我现在一样

晚上冲动的跟ll去穿了耳洞，针过去的那一下好痛。
i'm sorry ，my dear ears
冲动是魔鬼。。。

再晚一些时候，跟小发、andu，还有偶遇的石头一起吃东西
很难得，这次是我们等他们，总算心理平衡了一点点 *^-^*

--*第五天*--

一大早起来就开电脑，用百度找歌听
很久没有新的歌听了，快要不行了
我找找找，我找找找
哦，时间一下子就到了13：00
又在电脑前消磨了半天光阴，这日子真好混
发了这篇流水帐，偶就去洗脸（hiahia~~）
然后收拾收拾出门晒太阳（今天太阳比较温柔，晒不黑）
goodbye，my computer~~
goodbye，my internet~~

angels

老歌，一直在听，没厌倦过
Robbie这坏小子的歌，有时候很能给人温暖．．．

does an angel contemplate my fate


she offers me protection，a lot of love and affection
whether i'm right or wrong

and down the waterfall
wherever it may take me
i know that life won't break me
when i come to call 
she won't forsake me
i'm loving angels instead

lyrics

i sit and wait
does an angel contemplate my fate
and do they know
the places where we go
when we're grey and old
'cos i've been told
that salvation lets their wings unfold
so when i'm lying in my bed
thoughts running through my head
and i feel that love is dead
i'm loving angels instead
and through it all she offers me protection
a lot of love and affection
whether i'm right or wrong
and down the waterfall
wherever it may take me
i know that life won't break me
when i come to call she won't forsake me
i'm loving angels instead
when i'm feeling weak
and my pain walks down a one way street
i look above
and i know i'll always be blessed with love
and as the feeling grows
she breathes flesh to my bones
and when love is dead
i'm loving angels instead
(repeat chorus)


 

Never thought you knew me
never thought of you with me．．．．．
cry
Never thought you knew me
never thought of you with me
always fighting in the dark
before
never got to tell you
I don't know what I mean to you
no need to explain
anymore
but I'd cry
I would die if I lost you
and I'd cry
when I think about us
it's only me that comes between us
it's only me that
closes the door
but I'd cry
I would die if I lost you
and I'd cry
and you know you held me up
held me to the sun
when I was yours
and I know I let you down
let you down
the day that I was gone
but I'd cry
I would die if I lost you
and I'd cry
but I'd cry
I would die if I lost you
and I'd cry
Hello 
Playground School Bell Rings Again
Rain Clouds Come to Play Again
Has No One Told You She's Not Breathing?
Hello I'm Your Mind Giving You 
Someone To Talk To
Hello
If I Smile And Don't Believe
Soon I Know I'll Wake From This Dream
Don't try to Fix Me I'm not Broken
Hello I'm The Lie Living For You So You Can Hide
Don't cry
Suddenly I Know I'm Not Sleeping
Hello I'm Still Here
All That's Left Of Yesterday 
Mad World

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
And their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me
Yes U Can 
jewel

Make your way through mirrored halls
See the boys with all their dolls
A pretty maze, like candied streets
U feel a thrill when your eyes meet
U pick the one with the feathered hair
But I'm the one that makes the boys stare
There's a room, or so I'm told
Where the DJ rocks and we don't grow old
Would u like 2 take a ride?
All u have 2 do is come inside

[CHORUS]

Say hello 2 the room where the party's jumpin'
Where the boys all freak 'cause boots are bumpin'
Where the girls are naughty and always saying
"Yes u can, yes u can, yes u can"

U got on your money rags
And Papa's got a brand new bag
And Mama's got her hot pants on
While in the back, the beat goes on
Would u like 2 come along?
Then shut up and sing this song

[CHORUS]

The boys are pale
The girls are soft as nails
The band strikes up and it starts 2 wail
There's a price on everything
It's not cheap 2 buy your dreams

[CHORUS]
Intuition 
jewel
I'm just a simple girl
In a high tech digital world
I really try to understand
All the powers that rule this land
They say Miss J's big butt is boss
Kate Moss can't find a job
In a world of post modern fad
What was good now is bad

It's not hard to understand
Just follow this simple plan

Follow your heart
Your intuition
It will lead you in the right direction
Let go of your mind
Your Intuition
It's easy to find
Just follow your heart baby

You look at me
but you're not quite sure
Am I it or could you get more?
You learn cool from magazines
You learn love from Charlie Sheen

If you want me let me know
I promise I won't say no

[Chorus Repeat]

You got something that you want me to sell
Sell your sin. Just cash in.
You got something that you want me to tell
You'll love me. Wait and see.

If you want me
Don't play games
I promise
it won't be in vain
Uh-uh-uh

[Chorus] 

adia 
Sarah McLachlan
adia i do believe i've failed you
adia i know i've let you down
don't you know i tried so hard
to love you in my way?
it's easy....let it go...
adia, i'm empty since you left me
i try to find a way to carry on
i search myself and everyone
to see where we went wrong
there's no one left to finger
there's no one left to blame
there's no one left to talk to, honey
and there ain't no one to buy our innocence
[chorus]
'cause we are born innocent
believe me adia
we are still innocent
it's easy, we all falter
does it matter?
adia, i tought that we could make it
i know i can't change the way you feel
i leave you with your misery
a friend who won't betray
i'll pull you from your tower
i'll take away your pain
show you all the beauty you possess
if only you'd let yourself believe
that we are born innocent
believe me adia
we are still innocent
it's easy, we all falter
does it matter?
[chorus]
believe me adia
we are still innocent
[chorus] 
迷航记 　　      黄立行
漂流好久错过很多  遗忘了朝向哪个星座
曾经有人为我掌舵  不知名的水手
身边的人们来去都匆匆  带著阶段性笑容
要面对多少虚伪的小丑  才停止堕落
找不到熟悉的天空  迷航记的水手
谁来为我点一根火柴  证明我的存在
莫名崇拜一个未来  寻找不存在的港口
或许只想跟著谁走  过简单的生活~